HOWDY people.
changed my blog skin!
like it?
because the previous one seemed to be having
a few problems so i decided to get a new one.
although it's plain but i really love the picture
above. it's so nice!

anyway.

i had lit promo today.
unseen poetry comparison.
i didn't really complete it
cos of the time limit.
but i hope i did well.
i really like the 2 poems actually.
it was about death and war.
emo.
i love literature.
it's so beautiful.
i remember dissecting poems in secondary school
and i would be so immersed in it and
absorbed that even when the assignment/test is
done i would still be thinking about the poem
and all the emotions in it.
especially if it's a sad poem.
:)

as i was walking back home today,
i saw a few teenagers who were from my
former secondary school smoking and like acting all cool
like "hey look at me i have a ciggie in my hand and i am
puffing away" kind of attitude.
i know it's totally none of my business and i don't even know
them so who am i to say anything?
but i just feel really sad when i see people around my age smoke.
like really sad.
like why would they want to do that?
why?
don't they care about their health at all?
even if they don't why don't they think about their family members
who love them and care about them?

is it because they have gone through a lot in life
that's why they deserve to have a puff?
that's total bullshit.. my life isn't exactly a bed of roses
and i have gone through my fair share of thorns under my feet
but that doesn't give me an excuse to do bad stuff..

or maybe because they feel depressed or don't get enough attention
and time from their family?
smoking won't help make the situation better.. yes they may
like stop you and stuff but then won't all parents stop their kids
from doing bad things? they'll maybe blame themselves for not
taking good care of you.

or is it because your friends ask you to do it
and if you don't you're a loser?
so if they tell you to eat cat poo you'll eat it?
or ask you to lick their shoe clean you'll do it?
why are they so insecure?
why can't they just say no.
why do they want to sink to their level?
no sense of self love?
no confidence in themself?
afraid of eating alone in the canteen?
what the heck.
go find new friends who really care about you!

or maybe because you're just plain bored
with your life that smoking is just another
thing you do to entertain yourself.
maybe you should ask yourself why are you even living.
what is your purpose in life?
study, get married, have children and then die of lung cancer?
and then make them mourn over your dead body and blackened lungs?
that is so selfish.

i remember my dad always telling me
not to mix with bad company, don't smoke, don't drink, don't take
drugs, but i always knew i will never do them.
because, that is the least i can do to respect myself.
i didn't want to end up like him. hell no.
even when i was 9 i knew i would NEVER want to be like him.

i mean.
smoking may seem like a small deal.
but it's the small things that matter.
if you can't even deal with this then how
are you going to deal with the bigger stuff?
by taking a puff?
OH PLEASE.

okay i got carried away.
i got more and more pissed as i was writing.
that's because i care.
if i don't give a hoot i won't even bother
wasting my finger's energy on typing this crap.
when i said you i don't mean you as in you
but yah you get what i mean.
well if you read my blog and you smoke.
maybe it's time for you to rethink about
your life and ask yourself why you smoke.
and DEAL WITH IT.
before you kill yourself.

humph.
bye.